I’ve been struggling to find my words for the last few months. There’s so much to say and, to be honest, I’ve had so little energy. I’m not sure that this year has been any rougher than any of the last 5, but lately it seems that way. Probably because we finally did find a combination of things that work so well for me, then I lost my health insurance. I now have new health insurance, but they won’t pay for all my meds. To be fair, this year has had it’s great points too.

Anyway, we’ll cover all that another time. Today, an excerpt from my grandmother’s diary. My hero and inspiration.

11/7/89  This morning during my time after breakfast with tea and “devotions” (Yearbook of Prayer and “These Days” booklet) the Nov. 7 comments in the latter are just what I needed. It speaks of ” the simpering self-depreciation that tries to pass as humility in the attempt to “puff up” by exaggerated deflation, to be famous for one’s worthlessness.”

“What have you that you did not receive?” I Cor 4:6-7

“Neither boasting nor backing away, may we use our gifts in your service, Lord Jesus, knowing that each one is cherished. Amen”

I know I’ve heard “As you receive freely give” – I know have I heard that in my 64 years – yet I never really heard it until today.

This really spoke to me, as many of her entries do. I can tell you, I never would have made it this far without her.

I nutoo, Grandma.

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